abandoned

sleepless in the night, i try to lose my faith in you, saying to myself, "you can't be the right one for me", and now that you are gone, i finally get a taste of freedom, only problem is: i don't really want to be free, i don't wanna be abandoned, i don't want to curse your name, i don't wanna feel the sadness, pretending that i'm still the same, i don't want to burn your letters, i don't want to face the truth, i don't wanna be abandoned, i don't wanna waste my youth, you tried to suffocate with your pretence, and i believed in this shallow romance, i ran for cover but i couldn't hide, and still you tried to get me to abide, you scratched me like a perfume ad, erasing all the feelings that i had, and all the time you faked this loneliness, cause you wouldn't see my twisted mess, i don't wanna be abandoned, i don't want to curse your name, i don't wanna feel the sadness, pretending that i'm still the same, i don't want to burn your letters, i don't want to face the truth, i don't wanna be abandoned, i don't wanna waste my youth